Seeing Him.

Have you ever wondered what Heaven, Jesus and angels will look like?

I have. But it wasn't until my  near-death experiences that God became even more real to me. 

2005- I am a young married adult with a 2 year old to chase around. I contracted a staph infection and landed in the hospital along with double pneumonia. I was minutes away from losing my life, and was in a 2 week induced coma. Many prayers were being sent up to the Throne during this time.

Having been through the illness, I knew that during my coma I did not have any "visions" of heaven, or anything like that. After waking up, I knew that the Lord still had a plan and a purpose for me here. The reality of being so near death, but yet staying here on earth was tough. I spent several nights in tears, longing to be with my Savior, yet grieving for my husband and son that would have lost a wife and mother. I have an overflow of gratitude and  thankfulness to the Lord for allowing me to live longer on earth, as I now have 4 beautiful children that I am raising with His strength and guidance alongside my husband.

Having known that, the past summer of 2014 I had a experience like nothing else from my illness or before that.

A glimpse of Heaven

After my 2005 illness, I  have long-term Asthma problems, which come and go depending on health, and the weather affects my lungs as well. 

I was having a rough "breathing" day...wheezy, coughing and just not feeling quite right. I usually blame it on the Nebraska wind we always have! :-) 

I went to bed that night....


I found myself dying, and floating up towards Heaven.

As I was floating up higher, my physical breathing, and lung capacity, seemed like the air was getting squeezed out of them.  I felt such pressure on my chest, as if all the air was going out of me and I

was no longer able to breathe.  The higher I went, the

less I could feel any

breath from my body. I could see my feet dangling

below, along with the earth

beneath. I could feel the "whoosh" of the sky, the clouds all around me.


And then, I reached the tip, top of the clouds, and the brightness as the Sun




But, it was the SON.

Jesus. Himself.

I saw just His face, and what a

glorious face. So gentle. So kind, Such love. 


Did I see God Himself? No, just the edge of His Throne. His majestic, glorious Throne. The Shekinah Glory. And, His feet. Because, well, I wasn't allowed to see Him yet...


I called out to Jesus, pleading to be with Him. 

He lovingly told me, with an outstretched Arm,


"Your time has not yet come. I still have work for you to do." 


Gentle words. Like gentle waters. Love. 


His hand, reached out to me, as I tried to grab hold of Him. But, He was right, as He always is.

My time had not yet come. 

I felt His breath literally filling me up with air, into my lungs. Just like when God breathed "the breath of life" into Adam. I felt the air, pumping my lungs, no longer the pressure I had felt when I was going towards heaven.

And then I awoke. 


Was it real? I believe it was. I knew the reality of what could have been from that near death experience. in 2005. 

Why is Heaven so important? 

Without Jesus, I could not see Heaven. Could not see a glimpse of the LORD, or the Throne.

Because of Jesus' sacrifice for my sin, for your sin and mine, on the cross, we can have salvation and life eternal with Him forever in Heaven. When I was seeing Heaven's gate, nothing else mattered except the most important person.


My only relationship, my first Love.


It is only through Jesus, that I can go to Heaven. And it's the only way you can get to Heaven too. Not just trying to be  a good person. Not doing good deeds, although they are honoring to Him. It is not the way into Heaven. 

Jesus said, "I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life, no man comes to the Father, except through Me." 


Will you put your faith and trust in the only ONE Who can let you into Heaven? 

Because of Jesus' death on the cross for my sins and yours, there is the only way of knowing you can be with Jesus and be with Him forever in Heaven. 

1. Admit that you have sinned  "For all have sinned and fallen short of the Glory of God."

2. Believe:  Acts 16:31 says "Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and you will be saved." 

   1 Corinthians 15:4 "Jesus died for our sins, was buried and raised again on the third day, according to the scriptures." 

3. Confess:  Romans 10:9 "If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved."

Please pray this prayer with me,

"Dear Jesus,

I admit that I have sinned and done wrong. I want to be forever with You in Heaven. I believe that You died on the cross for my sins and You raised from the dead. I am asking You to come into my life and forgive my sins. I want You in my life, please come and live in me. Amen." 

So on the hard days, the rough days, the tiring days as a mom at home, working on the mundane, God gives me His Word, to be "faithful and diligent" in all that I do. For one day, I will see all of HIM, in ALL His glory forever. And, my prayer is that you have received His gift of salvation, that I will see you there, too.